
When I first learned to wear my shoes, I was confused between right and left.
When I learned to walk, I was confused with directions.
When I went to school, I was confused which bench to sit on.
When I passed my school, everyone around landed their career advices feeding my mind with confusion.
When I first went college, I was confused which floor my class was.
When I first fell for someone, my confused heart couldn’t decide if it’s love or crush.
When my heart finally decided it’s love, my feminist mind was confused if I should approach him.
When he asked me for coffee, the girl in me was messing her wardrobe in confusion of right dress for the event.
When we met for coffee, my nervous mind left me there in confusion of which coffee to order.
After the date, when he dropped me home, my glossy lips and blushy cheeks were confused to kiss him goodnight.
When he first kissed me, I was confused to go further.
When we argued for the first time, I was confused if he was the right one.
When he left me, my tears were confused to fall because he left or because I was lost.
When I got my first job, I was confused to be happy being independent or dissatisfied for I hated the job.
When I received my first payment, I was confused to spend it all or save some.
In twenties, when my parents chose partner for me, I was confused to agree or not.
When I first met my husband, my wounded heart was confused if he would break my heart into tiny pieces.
When he kissed my forehead, I was sure for the first time, he was the one.
When we had our first baby, I was sure we had a happy family.
When he raised his hand on me, I was again confused if he was the right man I chose.
When I saw him with another woman, I was still confused if I should leave him.
When he raised his hand on my daughter, I was sure, he was the wrong man.
When he filed case for divorce, I was sure to sign it. I was finally sure to be sure and not be confused.

Question answer with Zen
1. Tell us more about you.
Currently, a student at Tribhuvan University and also am a amateur conservation biologist. But my passion has always been on writing. Ever since I remember, I have always been fascinated by writing as writing is not only about words but more about sharing and pouring down emotions through words.
2. What was your thought when you apply to Wordism competition?
I came to know about wordism recently through internet. The only thing I had in my mind while taking part in the competition was learning something new and connect with writers. Connecting with writers gives me a feeling of being a writer.
3. What are your dreams and aspiration?
Everyone pictures their frame of dreams and goals through the sight of passion and interest. Similarly, I have my frames built by the passion of writing. I aspire to become a better writer everyday and have meaningful and positive impact in the readers life.
4. How do you feel being the Wordism Hero(Winner) of Asadh?
Taking part in wordism has not been a part of any plan but having to be the winner of the competition in the first go has been an achievement which will be an encouragement for me to pave the path to my writing career. Also, since this is my first ever achievement in writing, it will remain closer to my heart. And I am grateful to the Youth Legend Nepal for providing with such platform to showcase the inner writer in us.
5. Anything you want to say about who is reading this!
The only thing I would want to tell to everyone who’s reading this is don’t let anyone ever tell you what you can be or do. If anyone ever questions your capability, just prove them wrong. And you don’t need anyone to believe in your dreams as long as you believe in yourself. Everyone can be a writer as long as you can feel and imagine.
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